
How telling is it that the most appropriate photo I could find in my Flickr account for a post where I talk about jobs is a picture of a nasty, nasty crocodile?
I’ve been in the workforce now for fourteen years. If you count the paper round I had with my brothers and sisters when we were growing up, even longer. I got a job at our local supermarket when I was fourteen. I worked there all through high school and then would travel back to the country on weekends to work there during my first year of uni. I quit that job when I got another supermarket cashier job in Melbourne. In my third year of uni I got a job at a big department store in Melbourne, and worked there for over a year until I started working as a copywriter in advertising. That job lasted three years, at which point I was retrenched. I took my package and ran. Some time was spent on the dole, and I also worked as a tutor on and off in the Aboriginal community where my sister worked as a teacher. Eventually I was re-employed by the same department store that I worked at when I was studying advertising, and I’ve been in that job ever since.
And I have to say that I’m damn sick of having a job. Unfortunately, it’s not specifically this job that’s the problem — I have issues with working for other people, period. Sometimes I don’t think people realise exactly how much I do outside of work. When I mention to coworkers that I really wish I didn’t have to work, I get replies like, “but wouldn’t you get bored?” And the answer is a resounding no. I’ve had the good fortune of a few days off over the past couple of weeks, and I’ve thoroughly enjoyed the chance to finish up some projects that have been hanging around for far too long. I’ve also had the chance to ponder on what life would be like if I could afford to give up my job. I wouldn’t have to stay at uni until 8 or 9pm of a Friday night printing (and every other possible night, for that matter), because I’d be able to do it during the week instead. I wouldn’t have the struggle of trying to balance working ridiculous hours during our sales with finishing and installing my work for assessment. I wouldn’t have to feel bad about having days off and simultaneously stressing over how I’m going to pay for rent and bills and food because I only have 10 hours of work a week during slow periods. I wouldn’t have to take shifts from co-workers who can afford to give up work so they can concentrate on their studies.
The other problem is that I don’t really want to work in a “traditional” job when I finish my undergraduate degree. My original plan going into this course was to do a DipEd afterwards and work as a high school art teacher. As I move forward, though, that’s becoming less and less appealing. I’d love to concentrate on making my own work. I know I could make more money from it if I had the time available to me, but working for yourself as an artist doesn’t conjure up images of a stable (or large) income. I’d also love to continue on with Honours and Masters and the like, but that takes money and time, and I’m already getting considerable pressure from certain family members to hurry up and finish and get a “proper” job. And won’t it be nice when I have a job as A Teacher?… and so on…
I know not wanting a job makes me sound elitist, to a certain degree, and I certainly don’t want it to seem like I don’t want a regular job because I think I’m better than anyone else. But, you know, I don’t feel like I should have to settle for a career I don’t really want just because working for someone else is the ‘done’ thing, or the ‘only’ way to build character and/or become a ‘proper’ adult.
As I see it, I have a couple of options. One is to work as a lecturer in tertiary education, and do any Graduate studies part-time while I’m working. All I need to do this is have finished a BA (and, by gosh, I already have one of those… and I’ll have two soon enough!) and be working as a practicing artist.
Which brings us to the other option. My dream job. Promise you won’t laugh. Or mock me behind my back.
I want to work for Pixar.
I know, it sounds far fetched. Even now, part of my brain tells me it’s a ridiculous concept, but I also know that I could really do it. And I really, really, really, really want to. And for someone who’s never really wanted any sort of job, that’s saying something.
Do you think I could do it?