
All through my life I’ve had an irrational fear of spiders and other small crawling creatures. Apparently I screamed my way through ET under the seats of the cinema, because I thought ET was a giant bug. I don’t really remember that, and I’ve come to discover that my fear of spiders is really pretty stupid. I love spider webs, and have developed an even greater respect for them since learning to knit and spin. I still get spooked at times when I come across a spider or bug (or anything really… I’m embarrassed to admit that I spook quite easily…) when I’m not expecting to, but I’ve hit the point where I can catch most of these in a glass and take them outside. If I see a spider living in a little nook or cranny out of reach, I’m happy to leave it there. I know some of my growth in the fear department is a result of a growing general respect for the order of things — a realisation that I’m not the centre of the universe and other beings have just as much right to share this space with me.
Occasionally I’ll read a blog post where the writer freaks out about confronting a spider in their home, and waxes lyrical about their efforts to kill it because spiders are just. so. disgusting. And I always hope that someone in the following comments will come to the defense of the spider, but they never do… a lot of times the comments make me sadder than the posts, and I’m always too shy to make a stand. Maybe this blog post is my passive-aggressive retort.
The huntsman in the picture above isn’t from my house. We do have them here, but they seem to prefer living up the back of the yard, which is fine by me. This one was our Christmas Day spider. It watched us eat lunch at my sister-in-common-law’s house, and I took some photos of it afterwards.
It made me happy to see a spider on Christmas Day. I discovered an old myth from the Ukraine recently about spiders and Christmas, where it is considered good luck to have a spider somewhere on your tree. I might have linked to it in an earlier post, but it goes something like this.
Once, there was a widow who was very poor. One day a pine cone took root on the floor of the hut she lived in with her children, and all through the year they talked excitedly about how they would decorate their beloved Christmas tree. But they were so poor that come Christmas Eve, it was still bare. The widow knew that the tree would not be decorated.
Then on Christmas morning, she awoke to the delighted shouts of her children saying “Look! Look! It’s so beautiful!” A spider had visited their tree during the night, and spun a web all through the branches. When the first light of morning made it’s way through the window, the web turned to silver and gold. The widow and her children never wanted for anything again.